[PC stories/Life] HELP ME STOP MY OBSESSION WITH NUMBERS

Let me just preface this story by saying that I have never been obsessed with social media in the past. I deleted Facebook way back in 2016 and now only have two accounts, Instagram and Twitter. Just a little over a year ago, I became a fan of this solo singer. I was a casual listener of K-pop until now. Because I wanted to learn more about her, I decided to open a Twitter fan account. Since I can understand Korean, I began translating and subbing related content. Because of that, my followers started piling up, and I can safely say that I'm now considered as one of those "big accounts" in the fandom. Here's the problem: I'm starting to become obsessed with numbers. Whenever I post translated content, or any content for that matter, I keep checking the post every minute or so to see the number of likes I got or the interactions I had. I like it when my phone blows up with notifications so I turned off all app notifications except Twitter. Worse so, I keep checking my following list to see if a mutual has unfollowed me so I can unfollow them already because I wanted to have a nice large gap between my following and followers. (stupid I know, also I can't seem to unfollow them because I don't want to ruin my "reputation" or fans coming at me for unfollowing spree yadda yadda) Checking my Twitter account again and again just keeps getting in the way of my personal life. I already tried going inactive and uninstalling the Twitter app but that only lasted for a few weeks. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. But I can't seem to stop. Help?

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