[PC stories/KPOP takes] FINDING OUT MY FRIENDS WERE SASAENGS

Back in 2018 I was really active in KPOP community and forum groups and I became really close with a group of people on KPOP Twitter space. We bonded over our love for a group that we had been a fan of for a long time. I met a girl my age and she was a Korean American and we would play video games and talk a lot together. It was nice because she was fluent in Korean and I would get my sources from her because she showed to be reliable. Sources being simple things like where the idol likes to eat food and stuff that he said in the Instagram lives. She would give me little details that fan accounts didn't translate so I didn't think much of it. She invited me into their group chat after we got closer.

Over time, it seemed like I was missing something in the group chat that I didn't understand since 3/5 of them were fluent in Korean but I'm not really the type to feel left out so easily so it didn't bother me too much at the time. Her family was going to visit Korea for family gathering and she was really excited as the idol we bias was holding a solo event at the time so she was going to go. She kept the GC during her trip and then I see that she tweeted that she was at the event and tagged the others that were fluent in Korean. The tweet was a photo of them at the event together with their lights ticks. Ngl I was a bit hurt because we talk in separate DMs and she never mentioned them going together but it wasn't that big of a deal so I just told them to have a good time and asked why they didn't say anything in the GC. They kind of dodged it and the other person who isn't fluent messaged me on the side and said that it was weird that they didn't say anything but I just told her maybe that they felt bad and thought it was going to hurt our feelings or make us feel left out. (She and I weren't very well off at that time so there was no way we were gonna be able to go even if we were invited)

A week after that event and they returned home and they seemed normal except the friend I was closer to. The more I would talk about him, the more she would seem possessive. She actually snapped at me when I said that I wanted to kiss him. We had always talked about how nice it was that we could bond so much without being possessive and stuff as we know some kpop stans are, so I found this behavior so weird and hurtful. She gave off the impression that she knew him more, etc. every time I would talk about him.

Over the next few months, she didn't really share any translations to me or the GC. The others were sharing translations except they were more about the other members in the group that we stanned. But in between the moment from here to the realization, she had been going back to her family in Korea here and there and had been going to the bias group's events. Sometimes the other two would go with her, but they would tell us this time and everything kind of seemed normal although I kept a bit of a distance.

After our bias' second solo album, she suddenly went quiet and the other two kind of brushed it off whenever I would say that I was wondering where she was and I missed seeing her online since our bias wasn't the most popular member I didn't really have people to talk to about him.

I thought they were trying to hide the fact that she didn't want to be my friend anymore - which was a thought that developed after she got really possessive. Then one day she showed up in the GC and suddenly asked if any of us wanted to take her photocard collection, free of charge. AND THIS WAS A HUGE DEAL - her collection was huge! She had almost every one of this guy and even had collect the T-Money cards too. Of course I said I would take them but I messaged her on the side and she basically told me the truth that she had been getting information from some people K fandom side and had been following him around on her trips AND that so were the other two girls in our GC. I was disgusted with them and we argued back and forth and she pretty much told me she isn't going to do it anymore because she found out that he was going to get married.

I kind of went crazy and called them loopy for doing all that and how gross it was. Then I went into her about how he would be disgusted to see her face and why didn't she think of that. Then ended with the fact that she should be happy for him, not unstan him. Then she revealed he was getting married because he got his girlfriend pregnant so she couldn't support him anymore. I told her she was weird and to get some help then I blocked her and the two others. I messaged the other girl in our GC and she left since our bias group was kind of going inactive and she started to stan another group. I told her about all the crazy shit and she said she wasn't surprised.

The more I thought back to some things this friend would tell me, the more it made sense and I don't know how I didn't realize it earlier. Some stuff she told me seemed harmless at the time but now that I look back, they weren't normal things that he would say in public but it's hard to tell since I didn't know Korean.

Oh and the collection, she sent me one in the mail (she had my address since we would trade merch) and it was the one I wanted the most. she sent it a month or two after I blocked her. It made me a bit sad but I just couldn't be friends with someone like that. I heard from an old mutual that I keep in touch with that she burned the rest of her collection and she's married with a kid now. Hope she's better now.

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