[theqoo] BTS RM'S POST UPDATE

"To me, 'love' is still a complicated word.

Have I ever truly loved someone even once?

I held onto that question for a long time, but only one thing became certain.

The fact that I still don't know well.

Last year I was trapped in many things.

How many things appear and disappear, come and go

In between, I was shaken countless times, tormented, and went through many mistakes.

Having gone through that time

I feel like I'm finally standing and looking at spring.

This wait won't be the last, but still, I've come this far without stopping.

That's a relief.

I think a lot, and I'll try to believe that I've grown every time, but I'll fail and make mistakes again. In that process, I'll likely disappoint someone and hurt myself, right? However, now I think I know. That saying 'I tried my best' isn't all the answer.

My return after a long time is very exciting, but my heart is also humble.

I don't know why, even after carefully choosing my words, they are still rough and clumsy, and I talk a lot. Still, I'll try to speak without hiding.

Still, my heart beats when good music is made, and I laugh like a child when I mess around with the members. And when I think of the ARMY bombs shining like a forest at night in the audience, I feel like I'm going to cry. Because I believe this energy and heart brought me, and us, here.

Someone will watch, someone will leave, someone will worry, feel regret, or criticize, right?

Nevertheless, if there is a heart that waits for us in any form, if that is your love, I want to stand up again any number of times. Even if I stumble!

One person's way of trying to love the world. The way of trying to live. If we are all one universe, that might be the entirety of that universe.

With such a heart

I wait and wait. My New Year's greeting is late. I, you know, am trying to move forward now. To where the sun rises, where spring is heard-and finally, to where you are!

I end this messy writing with a Rilke sentence that has long remained in my heart recently. Love is still complicated, but nonetheless, I want to speak with a simple heart. That I love you!

"Let everything happen to you: beauty and terror.

Just keep going. No feeling is final.".

original post: here

1. Namjoon, have fun while doing music. I support you

2. What a nice post

3. ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ

4. He's good at writingㅋㅋㅋ It's obvious that he reads a lot

5. ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ I love you too!

6. I will be a fan of Bangtan for my whol lifeㅠㅠ My pride

7. Joon-ahㅠㅠ

8. I love you, Kim Namjoon

9. Namjoonie, I'm touched by you today once again!!!!