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It’s been two years, and so many things have happened during those two years.
Really, even within just one year, so much has happened.
Just thinking back to last year, around this exact time, I remember crying in my hotel room on the phone with someone from the company.
I said, “What should we do from here? Do we even have a future? What should we do next? I can’t tell what’s real and what’s fake anymore.”
I really couldn’t see even an inch ahead of me.
But what can you do? You just have to keep going, right?
When I came up against a wall that felt impossible to cross, I realized the direction I needed to go hadn’t changed.
You just keep moving forward.
You just keep trying.
There’s no other way. There really isn’t.
For FEARNOT too, this past year hasn’t been easy, right?
It’s been painful at times, hasn’t it?
Yes… for us, for me personally, this past year brought out so many emotions.
So many mixed feelings. It was really hard, but it felt too soon, too unfair to give up.
Especially when there are so many people standing by me, supporting me.
But you know how a pearl is made, right?
When a grain of sand or something irritates the inside of a shell, the oyster endures all that pain, and then a pearl is formed.
Just like that, I held onto the belief that from this pain, my own unique pearl would be created.
Amid this hardship and hate, I made a vow never to forget love, to protect FEARNOT, to grow and improve even more, so that we can protect the FEARNOTs we love.
That’s the mindset that helped me endure this past year.
And then, as I kept walking through that darkness with that belief, I realized this wasn’t a cave, it was a tunnel.
And as I started seeing rays of light, through award shows, fan meetings, and our comeback, I could feel FEARNOT’s love again, and the bond between the members growing stronger.
And that path that once seemed so far away… finally started to appear.
So, one year later, I never imagined I’d be able to answer the question I asked in that hotel room with such confidence.
“What’s real?”
The answer is right here, in this space, with all of us.
It’s in the memories, passion, sincere words, and warmth that we’ve built together with so much effort.
These aren’t things easily said by others, they’re things we achieved through hardship.
So what I want to tell you is all of this is real.
All the love and time we give you, it’s all real.
So if you ever face hard times again, please remember today.
Remember that there’s something that truly makes your heart race.
Believe that there’s someone who believes in you, because one of those people is us. The members.
So, even though we can’t always walk on a path of flowers, I hope we’ll keep moving forward until we can walk that path again someday.
Thank you for protecting us throughout this past year.
From now on, we will protect you.
Thank you.
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To the people still wondering how bad it was and mentioning Coachella, just have some shame
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